blindside

It's that squinty-eyed feeling, that shit,
      they've been planning this, been creeping up on me this whole time;
    that shameful flushing stupidity of
          why didn't I see this coming;
            and the heart-and-stomach-sick knowing
    that they were mine,
              someone I opened my arms for,
                     someone I laughed with,
                 someone I gave my heart to.